I turn 18 on Friday!

Wow! 18 years have just flown by!! I can't wait even though I am pretty sure to have what they call a "crappy" birthday. My mom works and my dad has school. My parents have their anniversary tomorrow which will suck up all the money to do anything for me. I mean seriously, they remarried when I was 11 and decided on that day. Seriously!?! Whatever. It's to be expected so whatever. I really hope to receive my first tattoo soon and I would like to have a car finally. Not something new. At this point I would take a total clunker. I have had my license for a year now. No car. Embarrassing. Also, my parents pressured me to get a license only to dump on me and say, "no driving". "We don't trust the people here driving". What the hell? Anyway, I performed my first concert of senior year. It was alright I guess. But I don't want to be a musician. Not anymore. People ruined the whole experience for me. Instead, I am going to do something productive and it helps people. I am going to become a counselor or a therapist. Whichever feels the most right. haha. I can't wait to start college for that. I really feel like I fit that occupation perfectly. Anyway, I must go so I can wake up tomorrow for school. Boo. haha. Thanks for reading. Goodnight.

First Day of School Today!

I finally went back to school today. It was alright, I guess. I was bullied again today by the whole guitar class. I walked in and went to my seat and someone who I sat next to acted like I disgusted him. We had to sit alphabetically. Of course my teacher makes me sit next to Daniel. Then nominations for the class officers happened. I was going to run for something but I chickened out because I was afraid no one would even vote for me. I didn't want to be embarrassed. I felt so horrible. Then one of my best friends changed my attitude and mood for the day. She told me straight up to toughen up and not care about other people. I think that is what I needed. I need to stop caring for others because no one ever cares about me. That is what I am gonna do and I'll see how that works out. Jessica is still being fake just to get votes to be President of the Guitar Department. She was being mean and bullying me earlier today and then in Spanish class, she decides to be nice and has the gull to ask me to vote for her. Um NO. I wont. She doesn't deserve not a damn thing. She has blown her free pass with what she did today. She will get what is coming to her very soon. Karma is a bitch. I am so tired of people bullying me for no apparent reason. I don't even know these people and they hurt or at least try to hurt me every day. What is wrong with these people? Don't they know that high school will end next June and then what will they have left? Nothing.

Back to Hell in 2 weeks for 1 more year!

In exactly two weeks, Ill be going back to school for a final year of madness. Yep, I am a senior. I will be very busy and documenting my journey hopefully often. hehe. I really would rather be homeschooled though. I really don't want to go back to a place where there are people who go out of their way to hurt me. Well, in an effort to heal myself and become an even better person and to grow, I have decided to give everyone who ever did me wrong a clean slate. Now, that means if anyone decides to pick up where they left off last year and try to do anything to hurt me, then it is over. I am going to defend myself. So that's it for tonight. Not much to say, really. Goodbye and thanks for reading. Follow me for more complaining about my life. Oh! I finally made a twitter. So if you have one, go on ahead a follow me there too @theresastar95. Thanks and goodnight!:) <3

The first of my many unfortunate events during my junior year: Bullies

Jessica: The first of many people to pick on me. She happens to be the worst person I have ever met. She has been bullying me for the past 3 years now. I still don't understand what her problem is. It all started freshman year on the first day. We have the same major: guitar. ( I go to Las Vegas Academy of the Arts), and we took music theory together. Anyway, I am a generally nice person and I tried to be friends with her immediately since we were in the same major, same class. Innocent right? WRONG! I smiled and was nice and the only thing she could muster up from her horrible attitude was a scowl. Scowling just must be her thing because she just doesn't smile at all. Now switching to something that ties in to the whole story is a boy named Daniel. Aaaah, now of course this is over a guy. Typical teenage girl issues. I liked Daniel, even loved him for a while, and she knew that, he knew also. I guess she just likes to see people hurt because all she did that year was make me hurt and cry by being all over him and telling him horrible things about me. Mind you, I had NEVER done anything to her EVER. I didn't know her at all, I mean, she's just your over-the-top mean girl. Anyway, that continued all through sophomore year and this year was worse, but I finally found out that she is a pathetic person who just needs to hurt people to make herself feel better. Her and Daniel got together junior year, as far as I know. Shoo, I have no damn idea, nor do I care really. Anyway, all through junior year, she taunted me with him. She grabbed him, kissed him, even had sex with him on the coach bus that all the V3 guitar majors were on when we were going to California. Yes, I know this is true because I saw it with my own eyes. No, I am not lying or overreacting. I ride the bus to school and Daniel happens to ride that same bus on the same route. Jessica never used to come on my bus because here you aren't allowed to go on a bus that isn't your assigned bus. --she would sit so close to me and my friends and just make out and laugh and throw paper balls at me with messages like " stupid whore" and whatnot on them. Mind you, I have never had a boyfriend, a kiss, or had sex before in my life, so I know she was just taunting me and trying to hurt me. By the end of my sophomore year, I had absolutely NO feelings for Daniel, so really she was just wasting her time. I find it absolutely DISGUSTING that she would do that to me. And to top it all off, Daniel was right along with her doing all of these horrible things to me and laughing in my face right after it happened. I can not believe that people can be this evil and enjoy the pain of others. Jessica is always trying to embarrass me and is always making these ugly faces at me and people laugh because they too are bullies. I am so sick of the bullying and I plan to do something about it. I am almost 18 and she is still acting like a 4 year old. My point is, if you don't like someone, ignore them, don't go around having sex in front of them, rallying people to bully someone, making ugly faces and scowling, and being flat out mean. That is just way too much energy. Furthermore, treating people like this could be dangerous, because they could come back and try to kill you. It has happened where victims brought guns to schools and killed their tormentors. I never think like that though, but in all seriousness, that stuff can happen. So bullies out there, get your life together and stop the sadistic antics.

Wow! It's Been a Year!

Wow it has been over a year since I have written on this blog. I just hadn't had the time to write or even remember that I have a blog. Good news is I finished junior year in high school. Very excited to be a senior now. Also, I am very excited to almost be 18 in 4 months. GREATNESS! Haha! :) I will soon go back to complaining about my life and writing to myself or to others who would like to read my blog. I have a lot to get out. Much has happened in my junior year that my personal actual journal just cant hold, so I shall put it here. I really don't care who reads this, just as long as I get it all out. Sorry for those who don't like what I post, but if you don't like it, then simply click on out. I think I will post my experiences in separate posts based on the subject. Oh! Here's an updated picture of me hehe.