I Am So Exausted

Well I am back. It is 10:36pm and yep I am very tired. Dealing with crap today. Mom apologized for all the yelling. I guess I am fine. I had to babysit a few kids today. Part of my attempt at making money. Hehe. Well I will just go and sleep now. So tired. Goodnight :)

I Have To Get Out Of This Place

I just had to leave my house just now. I walked to a park/hangout place just to calm down. I have been dealing with so much shit that I just can't take any more of it. My mom is just such a drag and way too much drama, just too much especially lately. She expects me to just clean up the house and do all of that(which I have no problems doing) but then she just expects me to let my younger brother come and fuck up everything I just cleaned. He hollers and screams and she doesn't discipline him at all. She just gets lazy and lets him do whatever the fuck he wants just because he cries. He needs to learn that crying and throwing tantrums doesn't get you anything. He should've been slapped in the mouth in my opinion. Anyways, she then gets mad at me for telling him to clean up his mess after he was done playing. She continues to yell and holler at me saying that, "we deal with you and your funky room all the time". No the fuck she doesn't. I did clean my room and they continue to say it isn't clean. It is. They have a hoarders room and yet they wanna complain about my room. Who is she to talk. She never picks up the house or cleans a damn thing. She comes home and sits on the bed with her laptop, food, and watches television. Every day. Every single day this happens on a schedule. She had a baby almost 7 years ago and got fat and is now spending $10000 on a tummy tuck just that she doesn't have to work of the extra 20-30 pounds she's gained. That's selfish. Especially since she spends countless amounts of money on material things that she doesn't need. I have a job working at my school and I don't really make that much money. She acts like I don't work when I do. I may not make a lot but I do work for just a little pocket change. Since I'm 18 I'm looking for a more paying job. Hell I will even be a cocktail waitress when I reach the age limit. I'll work any job in the Las Vegas, North Las Vegas area. All I know is, I need money really quick. Really I think I'm up for anything, I'm that desperate. Back to the situation at hand, I have to go back because I turned on the oven because I was making something before all that happened. I will continue later and I will because now I have the blogger app on my phone and I will most likely remember to blog more. But I will continue with this story a little later.